What do you see?
Two roses?
Two wilted roses?
Two wilted roses hanging?
Two wilted roses hanging by the window?
Two wilted roses hanging by the window against the clear skies?

This particular two roses are given by a dear friend of mine because I sent her off to a holiday.
I have seen many friends, none quite like her.
This rose is therefore a precious little red thing to me.
My first roses.

I have asked before, which flowers do I like to receive?
I have replied before. None.
Because if real flowers are given, it will eventually wilt.
If fake flowers are given, it is not sincere enough.

Yet, currently I found myself entrigued by the changing appearance of this rose.
From bright red, to the petals falling out more...slowly edges starts to be tainted with black..and the bright red turns into a royal maroon colour.
Soon, I'll meet a brown rose perhaps.

Eighteen.
For a couple of days.
It would be naïve to claim that I have understand life.
She's right.
Six years have flown, but I still have many pages behind the page I'm writing.
Just like the roses, I'll experience the changes, I may detest it first, who knows I'll be entrigued by the process of it?
And just like the rose, a human is just like a picture.
A thousand and one words to describe.
A person's judgment should never be the reason for your insecurity.

I started out this year wrong without any goal in mind.
It was just mindless drifting, perhaps thinking I can just accept what comes and go.
I was terribly wrong.
In any point of your life, a compass must still be held close to your heart.
Never ever lose yourself.
Because you may never find yourself back.

The very reason I picked up this pen, the reason will be found one day.
Right now, I finally saw the clouds clearing, at least I see something worthy for me to fight for.

Three more papers. Nine days to freedom. Nine days to Thanksgiving. Thirty-three days to my dream. Thirty-six days to Christmas.

twenty thirteen will end well :)

Have a nice day lovely people :)

psst... I am sick :( I wrote this because I was tired from studying :B