"When its the first snowfall, what will you do?
I'll come by and see you , of course. You're my only friend. "

That marks it all, I have finished " I miss you " drama.

You know, sometimes in life, many are unexpected, many are expected.
Sometimes we hope our lives will be like dramas,
Other times we hope that it would be less dramatic.
Sometimes we hope, sometimes we wish,
But most of the times we don't realised what's just beside of us.

This year has just started but I feel a long way ahead.
It's probably not a bad feeling, just some long path way way way ahead of me,
I wonder why did God chose this timing,
And, I firmly believed, it was a test.
Its a test to show myself how determined I can be.
Its a test to show and push myself to greater heights.
Its a test, to assure everyone, that yes,  I'm 18 and I've grown up.
Its a test, to tell myself, I'm ready, I'm ready for the world.

Firstly, I have to stop that friggin busy mind of mine.
To stop thinking for once.
I feel my world spinning, round 'n round..
Non-stop.
 I feel like its the phase where I am evolving from the moon to become the sun.
I fear that.
But I have to learn to get through that.
Right now, with one goal in mind, an a future to fight for.
I can do this :)
Keep your head in the game, girl..

Last note, I am learning, really still learning.
I fear that I'm not perfect enough,
I fear that I'm a disappointment.
I hope that you'll accept me for who I am.
I will be ready to take on this ride, perhaps next year.
But till then, please, please don't let my hopes up and drop them down again.
I can wait, not sure if time will.

P/s Today is the 7th Day of the Lunar Calendar, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE :)