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Two days to seventeen.
How does other people wait to turn seventeen?
Do you make up a huge lists of what you wants, and all the things you wanna do when you're 17?
Do you lie on your bed and make up fantasies?
Do you count the petals on the dandelion as you pray for a new love in the coming of age?
Do you hang out with all your friends and capture the very last photos when you're sixteen?
Do you plan a special event for yourself, like a treat?
I don't know how I should be feeling. Somehow this new coming of age frightens me,..
Like, Wow, I'm older already. Am I acting as how I should?
Are there things that I can't do anymore?
Are there things that I can?
What will I expect, Or what will others expect of me?
Have I done well all these years?
In these seventeen years, did I hurt anyone?
Am I walking down the right path?
Am I still confused?
What is Love?
What is Friendship?
What is Family?
I always see myself as different from others because of my difference in thinking.
Sometimes, I will wonder if I'm right.
I would play back my memories again and again making sure that I didn't do anything wrong.
I didn't hurt anyone.
I did the right thing.
I have always aimed to be better than anyone.
I wanna be everyone's listening ear and advicer.
I wanna be good at everything...
I think one of my regrets is I haven't kept my songwriting dream with me thus far.
It is still a dream, and just a dream.
I guess I know why all songs are love songs.
When you're in Love that's when you feel the most emotions and write better songs.
Speaking of Love, all the dramas and movies I've watched, speak of this feeling very often.
I wouldn't say I'm curious. Just, no matter how much me and my single-friends talk about it. How much we tease each other with pretend boyfriends, fantasies, make-believe. No matter how much I hope it would arrive, sometimes. I know it ain't the time.
I won't hurry this love.
I still think its too young.
For that one in a million couple that stick through all the way from age of 15 to each others death, my utmost respect.
But really, not everyone's love is like that.
I believe, in this coming of age, I would still hope to make great friends like I did this year. I don't need a boyfriend to survive. So, I doubt turning seventeen is all about love.
Perhaps, the huge huge test next year? The last and final major exam in my studying years?
These few days, through inspirations from movies, books, personal recounts, I have gathered sufficient motivation to push me forward, make my very first step...
I'm nervous though. It would be a single battle.
I have never put 100% in anything.
I hope next year will be the first.
My JoongKi Oppa once said this :
I liked seeing my grades rise, and when I get into something competitive, I work really hard, so I think that’s why I worked hard in school.” — Song Joong Ki
I wanna be like him!
Many people showed their dislike in Kpop, for being a fantasy fan love.. Waste of money, time and energy. It's just a crazy young period that everyone will go through, but when you look back, you'll regret wasting those time crazying.
I beg to differ. Ever since I was introduced to Kpop, my love for music never stops. My continuum motivation source comes from them. Most lessons I have learnt, is through this very country. Kpop was my first step to my dream of being a multi-lingual person. I won't say I speak good Korean, but able to read, write and recognise was one of my greatest achievement thus far. I have a lot to learnt from their never-dying determination that get this country so far. I don't care about other fangirls, but in this seventeen years, I don't regret, no I don't regret loving kpop. In fact, it is one of the best things I have ever done.
Many would look back at their youth and walk down their memory lane. Thinking it was so good to be young. But many forget that that very time when they were young, all they yearn was to be older. All these looking back and looking forward, everyone forget their present. I am guilty of that.
Two days to Seventeen.
Ten days to ThanksGiving.
Fifteen days to NZ.
I am truly blessed.
I am grateful for God standing by me these seventeen years.
While I'm still sixteen,
I hope to remember all these naive thoughts of mine.
My confused mind and heart.
All the fantasies I held.
All the dreams I believed in.
All the love I gave to some Korean guy
All the crazy talk I once had with my friends
All the crazy moments as I tried something I have never tried before
All the times I failed
All the times I succeeded
All the times I cried
All the times I laughed
All the times I complained
All the times I am grateful.
All the time, I gave love to my family, friends, teachers... everyone.
All the times when I didn't believe in myself, but everyone believed in me.
Every time, when God believes in me.
Perhaps leaving the tag of sixteen won't be that bad..
I probably won't meet some cute guy that confess his love.
I probably will have lesser time to fantasize.
I probably will have more times with my books.
I probably will complain more.
But I know one thing is, I'll never stop growing up, and I'll always be loved.
I just got to believe in that.
Maybe a year later, when I down here writing another entry as I leave my tag of seventeen, I would probably look back and laugh.
But right now, I wanna cherish this moment.
Happy Holidays to all~
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I Miss You | 보고싶다
Two days to seventeen.
How does other people wait to turn seventeen?
Do you make up a huge lists of what you wants, and all the things you wanna do when you're 17?
Do you lie on your bed and make up fantasies?
Do you count the petals on the dandelion as you pray for a new love in the coming of age?
Do you hang out with all your friends and capture the very last photos when you're sixteen?
Do you plan a special event for yourself, like a treat?
I don't know how I should be feeling. Somehow this new coming of age frightens me,..
Like, Wow, I'm older already. Am I acting as how I should?
Are there things that I can't do anymore?
Are there things that I can?
What will I expect, Or what will others expect of me?
Have I done well all these years?
In these seventeen years, did I hurt anyone?
Am I walking down the right path?
Am I still confused?
What is Love?
What is Friendship?
What is Family?
I always see myself as different from others because of my difference in thinking.
Sometimes, I will wonder if I'm right.
I would play back my memories again and again making sure that I didn't do anything wrong.
I didn't hurt anyone.
I did the right thing.
I have always aimed to be better than anyone.
I wanna be everyone's listening ear and advicer.
I wanna be good at everything...
I think one of my regrets is I haven't kept my songwriting dream with me thus far.
It is still a dream, and just a dream.
I guess I know why all songs are love songs.
When you're in Love that's when you feel the most emotions and write better songs.
Speaking of Love, all the dramas and movies I've watched, speak of this feeling very often.
I wouldn't say I'm curious. Just, no matter how much me and my single-friends talk about it. How much we tease each other with pretend boyfriends, fantasies, make-believe. No matter how much I hope it would arrive, sometimes. I know it ain't the time.
I won't hurry this love.
I still think its too young.
For that one in a million couple that stick through all the way from age of 15 to each others death, my utmost respect.
But really, not everyone's love is like that.
I believe, in this coming of age, I would still hope to make great friends like I did this year. I don't need a boyfriend to survive. So, I doubt turning seventeen is all about love.
Perhaps, the huge huge test next year? The last and final major exam in my studying years?
These few days, through inspirations from movies, books, personal recounts, I have gathered sufficient motivation to push me forward, make my very first step...
I'm nervous though. It would be a single battle.
I have never put 100% in anything.
I hope next year will be the first.
My JoongKi Oppa once said this :
I liked seeing my grades rise, and when I get into something competitive, I work really hard, so I think that’s why I worked hard in school.” — Song Joong Ki
I wanna be like him!
Many people showed their dislike in Kpop, for being a fantasy fan love.. Waste of money, time and energy. It's just a crazy young period that everyone will go through, but when you look back, you'll regret wasting those time crazying.
I beg to differ. Ever since I was introduced to Kpop, my love for music never stops. My continuum motivation source comes from them. Most lessons I have learnt, is through this very country. Kpop was my first step to my dream of being a multi-lingual person. I won't say I speak good Korean, but able to read, write and recognise was one of my greatest achievement thus far. I have a lot to learnt from their never-dying determination that get this country so far. I don't care about other fangirls, but in this seventeen years, I don't regret, no I don't regret loving kpop. In fact, it is one of the best things I have ever done.
Many would look back at their youth and walk down their memory lane. Thinking it was so good to be young. But many forget that that very time when they were young, all they yearn was to be older. All these looking back and looking forward, everyone forget their present. I am guilty of that.
Two days to Seventeen.
Ten days to ThanksGiving.
Fifteen days to NZ.
I am truly blessed.
I am grateful for God standing by me these seventeen years.
While I'm still sixteen,
I hope to remember all these naive thoughts of mine.
My confused mind and heart.
All the fantasies I held.
All the dreams I believed in.
All the love I gave to some Korean guy
All the crazy talk I once had with my friends
All the crazy moments as I tried something I have never tried before
All the times I failed
All the times I succeeded
All the times I cried
All the times I laughed
All the times I complained
All the times I am grateful.
All the time, I gave love to my family, friends, teachers... everyone.
All the times when I didn't believe in myself, but everyone believed in me.
Every time, when God believes in me.
Perhaps leaving the tag of sixteen won't be that bad..
I probably won't meet some cute guy that confess his love.
I probably will have lesser time to fantasize.
I probably will have more times with my books.
I probably will complain more.
But I know one thing is, I'll never stop growing up, and I'll always be loved.
I just got to believe in that.
Maybe a year later, when I down here writing another entry as I leave my tag of seventeen, I would probably look back and laugh.
But right now, I wanna cherish this moment.
Happy Holidays to all~
