Sometimes, I feel like a young bud in this big garden..

I won't lie, this two weeks was one of the worst few days in this entire year..
But, like always, I don't give in/ give up easily.
I have held it in thus far.
On the road for better change, it seemed tougher than I expect...

Life is probably a mixture of such horrible feelings..
Yesterday, I was upset because I had wasted a day.
I thought she was mad at me..
FOR NO REASON,
But I was worried as well, I was sad too..
Because I had been unhappy with her thus far but kept a happy front..
And now it happened, and made it seemed, it was my fault
It was unfair to me.
The reasons for why I was unhappy could be listed..
The whole point is, I kept my cool, and positive mindset.

In the end, twist of fate and all turned out like this.

Also, many other small small things like being laughed at cause my Organic Chemistry sucks..

I had always dreamed to be successful, A person who is not aimless.
Who dreams high, and enjoy life.

JC, it ain't no joke..
I am sure I am not the only one going through this..
The thing is, I never resort to tears, and its becoming harder for me to hold it in.
I do wish I breakdown too
But then again, who would care?
Holding it in would not make a change for the better unless I let go.

Incompetence, I have so much more to learn
Impossible never existed because there is God.

I just wanna take a break off, and throw away all these thoughts..
I am really tired of all these dramas.