Three days left to exam, and I spent my entire morning Fan spazzing.

Well, I hate to admit, JC life SUCKS..
I feel so, caveman..
I feel so, tired..
Frustrated.
Everyone expects so highly of you, all those responsibility
Things you juggle..
I think my greatest challenge is to sacrifice sleep
I already sacrifice my food, my eating desire..

Which is why I can't believe I lost 2kg after 10weeks of school.
This is hell.
I think I really expect too much, out of this life
It's time for me to reflect and give thanks to all I have..

So today, I forgive myself.
I give myself 4 hours break.
Something I doubt in near future I can give myself..
Or even have the time to give myself..

I am so tired, so unmotivated.. the feeling sucks.
I even dreamt myself solving chemistry yesterday..
I bet in a few weeks, my body clock will be totally screwed,
My diet will get lesser and lesser, might even become more skinnier
Worsen skin problems,
Ugly eye baggs...

I am starting to think life now as a JC student is like a trainee before you debut..
You know trainee life ain't easy?
They practice up to 18 hours a day,
Lucky ones practice 14 hours a day and get lots of other classes..
Sometimes I wish I can just throw my phone away (Just like trainee),
I wish I can live in a dorm.. (just like trainee),
.. I am serious about the dorm.
That way, I can sleep anytime I want..
And many other stuff..

14 weeks to promos, 3 days to common test.
Hwaiting Shermain.
I shall believe I am a trainee and will debut 1.5 years later.
Freedom will be tasted..

Just gotta pull my socks up, keep my spirits up
And clench my teeth and pull through the remaining days..