forever imperfect, but forever me

I have a dream..
Thursday, April 5, 2012 | 6:59 AM | 0 comments
How many times have this ever crossed your mind: I will be a great person in the future
I will not deny, forever..
Apart from trying my utmost best to not drool at the sight my favourite Kstars..
I am, absolutely.. in love with the Drama Dream High forever..
If you had not known, it is my blog's URL..

Why? Because the drama says it all..
I am not a big fan of soapy lovey dovey drama..
I find it a complete waste of time, and its kinda nonsensical to brainwash yourself believing you'll find an exact same guy like the main character.. Or thinking of dramatic ways to break up or confess to your love...
I rather tuck myself in the bed to be glued to sci-fi show that can make my mind go wild..
What's so special about this then?

Believe.. It makes me believe in myself..
If you had not known, I think waaaaay too much..
I have thought of becoming, teacher, scientist, designer, artist, songwriter.. and singer..

Let me ask you, how many times were you put down because people say you can't make it?
How many times you believe in others more than yourself?
How many times, you just want to give up, because you're tired of trying and not seeing results?
For me, Many times, Many times, ...and Many times..

I had spent forever researching studying myself..
And ironically, I'm definitely somewhat opposite from what my signs say..
Many of my friends misunderstand my original motive of studying horoscope, for myself..
And.. eventually I came to understand I wasn't as determined as what my signs say..
I wasn't as stubborn, as risk-taking..
Who am I?
I give up too easily, I can't deny..
Many times I have made mental notes to do this, do that.. I just fail..

Many of my friends were like saying I am stupid being so hardworking!
Its like the first few months! Am I...?
I'm not sure.. I have yet to know..
But I'm sure I won't be at a disadvantage..
Its just, its not nice to be labelled as too hardworking..
I am not..
Someone even told me to lighten up and be less serious..

So here, right here.. I shall tell you my dream..
My dream, ... it is forever changing..
I always wished I am equipped with many many skills..
Able to make a difference out there..
People singing the songs I have written..
Being a role model to others..
Giving others moral support when no one believes in them..

Is this a good dream?
Is this applicable to the future?

I always have a feeling I am forever not understand by my friends..

And speaking of them, I'm starting to feel lose out..
Gosh, why is it so hard for me to speak out?
I'm more of the type where I'll sit and wait before saying Hi..
Someone told me this year is the right year to change habits,
It ain't easy.. but some habits I have managed to scraped them (:

So, how's school you may ask..?
... ... I don't even have the time to think...
But, I can understand why adults missed childhood the most..
Its where, life doesn't revolve around drama, responsibility..

Tell me I am doing this right, I simply hate failures..
Worse still, all my hardwork ain't paid off...
Those heartaching moments :(
I have no time to catch up with me, myself and God :/
Life ... sometimes drives you mad..
You only can hold on tight and learn to adapt..
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Love Notes
She doesn't believe in fairytales
She only believes that everything in life happens for a reason
She's the writer of her life
She's holding the pen
The little notes from the book are here
This is her life, her book
Chapter 1ended
Chapter 2ended
Chapter 3ended
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Chapter 5ended
Chapter 6ended
Chapter 7Begins..


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