A moment to Remember..
I never trust myself with feelings, because sometimes I can't control them myself.. It's difficult to hypnotise myself to believe, to trust, to tell myself its okayNow, I simply cannot deny I'm not feeling nervous.. It's not just waiting for results.. It feels like, .. I can't even quite well describe it.. For once, I can't think logically, or make sense of what or how I should be feeling.. Is this how I should be feeling? About 4 hours before the release of results? It seems that after 4 hours, I would, and should know where I must be going.. It's like walking the same path with all these people all these while, and suddenly we come to a fork and everyone will take their own routes and leave me.. Not sure if ahead, we might meet, Not sure if we would ever meetThe last time, 2011 batch of students will stand together in the school hall, Waiting for the release of results together.. Crying, smiling, cheering, hugging... Yeah, it ain't just a simple release of results.. I glance through the photos of my Primary school friend, She has grown up so much.. I remember 4 years ago, we sat next to each other, keep telling each other how nervous we were.. We were anxious till the end.. Afterwards, when we receive the results, it was all different then... I knew I had to learn to accept that both of us will go separate ways.. However I didn't expect to spent one entire month with her after our O's Fate is absolutely amazing.. She's one great friend that I would never wanna let go.. But I have grown to learn to let her go.. Because, sometimes, I have to understand I am just a passerby in some lives... I cannot, however, express my greatest gratitude to God, For bring us together after 4 years... Thank God I insisted on keeping contactThank God she allowed me to work with herThank God for letting me find this jobThank God, for everythingNow, 4 years later, it's pretty obvious we would be going separate ways.. No matter how much I deny too, I know where I wanna go in my future.. It has always been there, I'm just wavering because of the pros and cons I weigh..The stress that always haunted meThe pressure from everyoneThe dreams that I created with my friends, But, I assured myself, it had always been where I wanted to go.. And, apparently, both of us aren't going the same way.. But I know this unique friendship ain't gonna end that easily, right? 7 years of friendship, not the longest friendship I hadBut one of the most magical.. I seriously, really, cannot Thank God enough :DNow, my friends, we'll gather in the school hall.. in about 3 hours 40 minutes later.. We'll be side by side, nervous , worrying together.. Thank God, I had met all of you.. All those made me stand, made me smile, made me cryAll those teachers that made me learn, made me understand, made me strong, made me who I am.. It was a pleasure to have your footprint in my book.. Now, if fate were to bring us apart. I pray that Life, no, not that Life would go easy on you.. But instead, I pray that Life, would bring you to an interesting path.. So you could write an extraordinary story, solely yours.. It might not be a story everyone knows, It might not be an extravagant life everyone yearnsBut it will be your story, Your chapter of life after Secondary School Years.. And maybe when fate bring us together again, we may be already wedded, having kids.. But this story of ours, would be the door opening to nostalgic.. Opening to a memory lane of our times together.. I always wondered if I had ever meant something to anyone.. Not necessarily what teens nowadays, claim as love.. But, more of,.. everything actually.. I want to be a good friend, I want to be someone that everyone remembers.. Hahas, however, I was wrong.. Not all friends are yours, and not everything is about friendship.. 4 years of lesson to understand.. I hope, after all of us left the school hall, probably in around 4 hours and 30 minutes.. We would just look ahead of our life.. Memories of school, stay in school.. We shouldn't be held down by our attachment to the youthful memories of Secondary school life.But instead, move on, make a greater story with what Life brings to you.. Now, as for me, I pray that I'll be strong no matter what I get.. I wouldn't be crying like I did 4 years ago.. for.. I absolutely do not know why either.. I haven't been giving myself any expectations because,.. the greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment.. And for me, I take success seriously.. I don't know.. really.. I have been living in pressure of being a role model for many.. and I don't even know why?It has been like since young... even to my siblings.. This pressure, ain't that easy to carry.. And, at the start of 2012, I had found myself crying more easily.. Maybe I had hold too much tears before.. Surpressing myself, convincing I was strong.. Many times, I'm extremely glad God has always been there.. To be my shoulders to cry on.. Not that I'm anti-social and refusing to show anyone tears.. But, as a Scorpio, I don't really express myself.. Many of my friends, or even my family may feel I talk a lot, express myself a lot.. But Scorpios have a lot of secrets... they never told anyone.. And, well, unfortunately, or fortunately, most of the secrets I've kept, are already long forgotten.. Left in the past..Though I was into horoscopes last year, and really dislike my horoscopes characteristicsI was amazed at how people find Scorpios Strong and amazing.. 2012, I have yet to write my New Year Resolution.. But I hope it would be a year, an ordinary year with an extraordinary story to write.. To all O's graduating students, I wish you all the best wherever your results bring you, wherever life brings you (:God Bless
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A moment to Remember..
I never trust myself with feelings, because sometimes I can't control them myself.. It's difficult to hypnotise myself to believe, to trust, to tell myself its okayNow, I simply cannot deny I'm not feeling nervous.. It's not just waiting for results.. It feels like, .. I can't even quite well describe it.. For once, I can't think logically, or make sense of what or how I should be feeling.. Is this how I should be feeling? About 4 hours before the release of results? It seems that after 4 hours, I would, and should know where I must be going.. It's like walking the same path with all these people all these while, and suddenly we come to a fork and everyone will take their own routes and leave me.. Not sure if ahead, we might meet, Not sure if we would ever meetThe last time, 2011 batch of students will stand together in the school hall, Waiting for the release of results together.. Crying, smiling, cheering, hugging... Yeah, it ain't just a simple release of results.. I glance through the photos of my Primary school friend, She has grown up so much.. I remember 4 years ago, we sat next to each other, keep telling each other how nervous we were.. We were anxious till the end.. Afterwards, when we receive the results, it was all different then... I knew I had to learn to accept that both of us will go separate ways.. However I didn't expect to spent one entire month with her after our O's Fate is absolutely amazing.. She's one great friend that I would never wanna let go.. But I have grown to learn to let her go.. Because, sometimes, I have to understand I am just a passerby in some lives... I cannot, however, express my greatest gratitude to God, For bring us together after 4 years... Thank God I insisted on keeping contactThank God she allowed me to work with herThank God for letting me find this jobThank God, for everythingNow, 4 years later, it's pretty obvious we would be going separate ways.. No matter how much I deny too, I know where I wanna go in my future.. It has always been there, I'm just wavering because of the pros and cons I weigh..The stress that always haunted meThe pressure from everyoneThe dreams that I created with my friends, But, I assured myself, it had always been where I wanted to go.. And, apparently, both of us aren't going the same way.. But I know this unique friendship ain't gonna end that easily, right? 7 years of friendship, not the longest friendship I hadBut one of the most magical.. I seriously, really, cannot Thank God enough :DNow, my friends, we'll gather in the school hall.. in about 3 hours 40 minutes later.. We'll be side by side, nervous , worrying together.. Thank God, I had met all of you.. All those made me stand, made me smile, made me cryAll those teachers that made me learn, made me understand, made me strong, made me who I am.. It was a pleasure to have your footprint in my book.. Now, if fate were to bring us apart. I pray that Life, no, not that Life would go easy on you.. But instead, I pray that Life, would bring you to an interesting path.. So you could write an extraordinary story, solely yours.. It might not be a story everyone knows, It might not be an extravagant life everyone yearnsBut it will be your story, Your chapter of life after Secondary School Years.. And maybe when fate bring us together again, we may be already wedded, having kids.. But this story of ours, would be the door opening to nostalgic.. Opening to a memory lane of our times together.. I always wondered if I had ever meant something to anyone.. Not necessarily what teens nowadays, claim as love.. But, more of,.. everything actually.. I want to be a good friend, I want to be someone that everyone remembers.. Hahas, however, I was wrong.. Not all friends are yours, and not everything is about friendship.. 4 years of lesson to understand.. I hope, after all of us left the school hall, probably in around 4 hours and 30 minutes.. We would just look ahead of our life.. Memories of school, stay in school.. We shouldn't be held down by our attachment to the youthful memories of Secondary school life.But instead, move on, make a greater story with what Life brings to you.. Now, as for me, I pray that I'll be strong no matter what I get.. I wouldn't be crying like I did 4 years ago.. for.. I absolutely do not know why either.. I haven't been giving myself any expectations because,.. the greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment.. And for me, I take success seriously.. I don't know.. really.. I have been living in pressure of being a role model for many.. and I don't even know why?It has been like since young... even to my siblings.. This pressure, ain't that easy to carry.. And, at the start of 2012, I had found myself crying more easily.. Maybe I had hold too much tears before.. Surpressing myself, convincing I was strong.. Many times, I'm extremely glad God has always been there.. To be my shoulders to cry on.. Not that I'm anti-social and refusing to show anyone tears.. But, as a Scorpio, I don't really express myself.. Many of my friends, or even my family may feel I talk a lot, express myself a lot.. But Scorpios have a lot of secrets... they never told anyone.. And, well, unfortunately, or fortunately, most of the secrets I've kept, are already long forgotten.. Left in the past..Though I was into horoscopes last year, and really dislike my horoscopes characteristicsI was amazed at how people find Scorpios Strong and amazing.. 2012, I have yet to write my New Year Resolution.. But I hope it would be a year, an ordinary year with an extraordinary story to write.. To all O's graduating students, I wish you all the best wherever your results bring you, wherever life brings you (:God Bless
