Tears
As we are slowly whisked away by the demon hands of homework and pressure from everywhereWe may actually experience "gene mutation", which is what may actually happen to us in order to survive and not get eliminated( Sorry people, please study ecology for Biology to actually understand). For example, I have already experienced "gene mutation" where I have red eyes like those you see in rabbits. I have also abnormal sleeping habits, where I can't sleep longer than 7 hours. But all these are probably what we will all go through as we sit for a major examinations. However so, it hurts me to see many of my friends in tears. Sometimes I wish I could cry it all out, but I would forbid myself too. Because I refused to break down, I refused to give up, I refused to look back and lingered on about the past. But when I see you guys cried, it really made me wondered, what has life become? Firstly, we were all tangled up between reality , dreams and advice. I could not believe I actually did it because I would never do that if no one told me. Then again, it was not because of anyone. I did it because I figured I am tired of the annoying advices I received. And if I did nothing, I will still be on the boat that is shaking. In short, I still could not believe I actually threw my face and made that decision. This very decision may be a relief to you, or a pleasure to you, but behind, it was an extremely painful decision. These two weeks was the most painful weeks I had endured throughout the year. Yet, I never dared to show anyone a soft side of me, cause I do not like to do that. It feels great to be hugged and people comforting you. But, no, I don't wanna do that. It feels horrible to let someone see your tear-stained face. It feels terrible to let someone know how weak are you. Now, it really hurts to see that this is not happening to not only me but others too. But I can't say anything, cause I threw my face away. I threw my pride away. If no one said anything, none of this will happen.I am just so confused and frustrated, I don't even know how I should be feeling now. Trust, the basic bridge to every relationship. We were once again tested for it. This very important moral value has begun to disappear in many people. Maybe the materialised world have changed us all. Maybe, we have become blind to importance of such value. If we look around the room, how sure can we trust them? In such a competitive life, you can never assure yourself that the very person you claim as best friend may become your enemy. This very life has caused us to lose all these things. Also, apart from that. We have gotten more sensitive, or at least I have. I figured I should learn to let go and forgive them. Because there are so much more things worth to care about and be bothered about. These little peanuts you see on the ground can simply be solved if you pick up and throw it in the bin. But how many of us would be willing to do that. All these seemed easy, but as you can read, there are questions hidden among them. This uncertainty, why do we have them? Life is extremely confusing now. If now kids have to go to tuition at a young age, will there be lessons provided to zygote?(the fusion of a male sperm and ovum, yes, I'm too bio -.-) The whole point is, this is our life. I won't solve them with tears, I won't solve them by hiding. I will try my best to be brave. Since I have already threw my face once and survived these two weeks, I have proven nothing could defeat me. For my dear chinggus, this life, we may not like it, but we have to be strong. Just for 94 more days, we can do it! There's no need for a reason because believing in yourself already means you have taken the first steps. So think through carefully, ignoring what others say. What do you want in life? After that, charge yourself up and prepare for the long battle. Because we, do not want to be eliminated (: *People throw rocks at things that shine ~
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Tears
As we are slowly whisked away by the demon hands of homework and pressure from everywhereWe may actually experience "gene mutation", which is what may actually happen to us in order to survive and not get eliminated( Sorry people, please study ecology for Biology to actually understand). For example, I have already experienced "gene mutation" where I have red eyes like those you see in rabbits. I have also abnormal sleeping habits, where I can't sleep longer than 7 hours. But all these are probably what we will all go through as we sit for a major examinations. However so, it hurts me to see many of my friends in tears. Sometimes I wish I could cry it all out, but I would forbid myself too. Because I refused to break down, I refused to give up, I refused to look back and lingered on about the past. But when I see you guys cried, it really made me wondered, what has life become? Firstly, we were all tangled up between reality , dreams and advice. I could not believe I actually did it because I would never do that if no one told me. Then again, it was not because of anyone. I did it because I figured I am tired of the annoying advices I received. And if I did nothing, I will still be on the boat that is shaking. In short, I still could not believe I actually threw my face and made that decision. This very decision may be a relief to you, or a pleasure to you, but behind, it was an extremely painful decision. These two weeks was the most painful weeks I had endured throughout the year. Yet, I never dared to show anyone a soft side of me, cause I do not like to do that. It feels great to be hugged and people comforting you. But, no, I don't wanna do that. It feels horrible to let someone see your tear-stained face. It feels terrible to let someone know how weak are you. Now, it really hurts to see that this is not happening to not only me but others too. But I can't say anything, cause I threw my face away. I threw my pride away. If no one said anything, none of this will happen.I am just so confused and frustrated, I don't even know how I should be feeling now. Trust, the basic bridge to every relationship. We were once again tested for it. This very important moral value has begun to disappear in many people. Maybe the materialised world have changed us all. Maybe, we have become blind to importance of such value. If we look around the room, how sure can we trust them? In such a competitive life, you can never assure yourself that the very person you claim as best friend may become your enemy. This very life has caused us to lose all these things. Also, apart from that. We have gotten more sensitive, or at least I have. I figured I should learn to let go and forgive them. Because there are so much more things worth to care about and be bothered about. These little peanuts you see on the ground can simply be solved if you pick up and throw it in the bin. But how many of us would be willing to do that. All these seemed easy, but as you can read, there are questions hidden among them. This uncertainty, why do we have them? Life is extremely confusing now. If now kids have to go to tuition at a young age, will there be lessons provided to zygote?(the fusion of a male sperm and ovum, yes, I'm too bio -.-) The whole point is, this is our life. I won't solve them with tears, I won't solve them by hiding. I will try my best to be brave. Since I have already threw my face once and survived these two weeks, I have proven nothing could defeat me. For my dear chinggus, this life, we may not like it, but we have to be strong. Just for 94 more days, we can do it! There's no need for a reason because believing in yourself already means you have taken the first steps. So think through carefully, ignoring what others say. What do you want in life? After that, charge yourself up and prepare for the long battle. Because we, do not want to be eliminated (: *People throw rocks at things that shine ~
