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Sunday, June 19, 2011 | 7:03 AM | 0 comments
Its the small things that gives life purpose

This short break has, I believe , changed us all.
We had the chance of enjoying a couple of inspirational messages which I was rather shocked.
I had a vague understanding of it for a long time,
Just one of those little mind-thinking moments.
Yet, this message which has been pondering in my mind can be interpreted this way.
I feel thankful to know this NOW (:

Yes, I'm sure you guys know I do think, or at least as I called reflect a lot.
Its become a habit, but I realised this maybe the reason why I feel so negative.
Whenever I flashback, I would cringe in disgust of the stupid things I did
I would frown in disappointment of the things that hurt me
I would cry silently of the things that I had lost
This habit, may result in me to forever unable to let go of these things
It will be etched and become my "homepage"

I always wondered if I think too much had hurt me.
I mentioned before , knowledge kills me.
I had become the most health and clean freak in my family.
Seriously, I stare at oil with disgust, I stare at little black dirts with a frown
And, its hard to go back to what you once were after having this knowledge.
How can I eat oil just like that after knowing they'll have saturated fat whichh will stuck to your vessels blocking your blood flow. And its practically permanent as it is hard to remove.
It's just like that.

Another thing is, I find in some people.
Why they always say things that are so sad, its probabbly because of habit as well.
They enjoy telling people that they are sad
They are heartbroken
They are disappointed
And, guiltily, I guess I'm one of them.
I'm not those with great determination
As you can see, my homework are still left untouched, under my elbows -.-

I researched about my horoscope and realised something rather interesting.
I would post some and the rest check out yourself kays (:

Scorpio is the eighth sign of the zodiac and represented by the scorpion. Scorpios are truly the contradicting sign. They can be the best and worst of both worlds - independent and clingy, loving and cold, authoritative and weak. Above all else, they are intense about almost everything.

Scorpios are often mysterious people because their true feelings run so deep and they keep their emotions hidden. They also like to uncover things under the surface of others and are very intuitive. Their intense desire to uncover things combined with their determination and loyalty make them great spiritual leaders, scientist, and doctors. They are very adaptable, often changing careers and going down new paths.

They can be strong willed and determined, almost to the point of being stubborn. This makes them great competitors, even if they are able to hide this desire to win from you. This also makes Scorpios very dominant, controlling and passionate. When they do not have a positive outlet for self-expression, they often turn inwards and become destructive.

When wronged, they do not easily forgive. It is almost as if the Scorpio sign invented the word "revenge." However, they just as easily never forget an act of kindness and are always ready to repay it. Scorpios are very loyal friends, but can be possessive. Scorpios are also conservative when it comes to money but when they do spend it; they know the right investments to make.
taken from : Personality traits of Scorpio

check out
this, something similar. Still scorpio though:X
And this is absolutely cool, practically rather true :XX

Hahas, some are rather true.
And its heartwarming to know this is my nature and not because I picked up somewhere
However, it's not comforting to know I'm still controlled by my nature..

Lastly, I pray, really really hope that ah gong will really get well soon
It really hurts that I can no longer talk to him.
I only managed to learn how to cook from him once
I only managed to really remember the trips I've been with him
I barely remember how his voice sounded, the conversations I had with him
I barely give him any presents when I bothered about my friends presents
I'm an unfilial grand-daughter, please forgive me.
But please do a favour for this unfilial grand-daughter, please get well.







Thank you for the Memories, 사랑해요


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